(Queer)(Chicano) (Sober)
This website is a meditation on Chicano Queer sober identity, desire, and spirituality, theorized from my own experiences. Website pages are articulated around some themes, as an attempt to reach a semblance of order; however, orderliness has never been my strong suit. Nor is orderliness the hallmark of queer sobriety.
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To Thine Ownself Be True.
“Mine is a struggle of recognizing and legitimizing excluded selves, especially of women, people of color, queer, and othered groups. I organize and order these ideas as ‘stories.’I believe that it is through narrative that you come to understand and know your self and make sense of the world. Through narrative you formulate your identities by unconsciously locating yourself in social narratives not of your own making. Your culture gives you your identity story, pero en un buscado rompimiento con la tradición you create an alternative identity story.” (Anzaldúa, Light in the Dark, 2015, 6)
This project utilizes autohistoria and personal archive to explore sober queer Chicano identity, desire, and spirituality.
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As a person in recovery from drug addiction, starting out with my story in this scholarly work is a performative measure of self-reflexivity that honors the process of sharing one’s experience, strength, and hope that takes place within the rooms of 12-step recovery.
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In many ways, since the very first 12-step meeting I ever attended, I have been making attempts at writing the self–at engaging in autohistoria-teoría.